Null Boch!

There is a saying in German.  It goes Null Boch, which means I have no desire to do that.  Well that is about where I am now.  I really did lose weight the 2 weeks ago when I had the goal to lose three pounds.  I lost two pounds.  And since then, well, null boch!  I look at how far I have come.  I have lost 27 pounds since I started this adventure after Lilah was born.  So really I have come far, but lately I start out great and then my energy fizzles about 1 pm.  After that I just get this whatever, I'll do it tomorrow attitude.  I think I have this idea that I have to be perfect or it just isn't worth it.  The times I am perfect I lose weight the times I am not I go completely the other way.  My "just this once" attitude kicks in overdrive and just this once turns into all the time.  So somewhere between the two there has to be some sort of middle ground where I can thrive.  Maybe if I pre-decide certain times to have a freebee then I wont get into the just this once groove and won't be so hard on myself for being perfect.  

This is one of those things you want and you want it now, and when that doesn't happen you think, forget it!  Is it really worth it?  I have 23 pounds left till goal so I am over halfway there!

So here's to a new set of goals.  Lose 8 pounds between now and my birthday and then another 10 pounds from my birthday and Christmas.  That leaves only 5 pounds after that.  

So as one of my favorite sayings goes:
The trick is in what one emphasizes. We either make ourselves miserable, or we make ourselves happy. The amount of work is the same.
~Carlos Castaneda