Alright already!

Do I would love to say that I have stayed away so long because I have just been so busy training for a marathon or something super healthy like that. But sadly, no! I think my absence all started when in one week I saw the scale go up about 5 pounds. In shock and disbelief I was very mad at myself. I hadn't really been eating that poorly and I was exercising but probably not as diligently as I should have. I tried to convince myself that it had something to do with that time of the month and was just water. Which actually I think that did play a part, but I am sure it was not all. Being so discouraged I didn't really want to talk about it all. Isn't that funny how we do that. We shy away from it at the very time we should be running to talking about it so we can get it all worked out in our minds. Anyway, needless to say I buckled down that week and had it all back off by the next week.

Now my biggest battle is stopping nursing. I haven't been able to have any milk products for so long that is scares me to be able to eat them. It was nice to have a reason to have to stay away. I keep telling myself that I still have a reason, a long lasting energetic life. However, that immediate consequence isn't there so it is not so easy. I just wish you could watch that chocolate slide down your throat and right onto your thighs. Wouldn't it be easier to stay away if the results were so fast?

I am sad to say that I have no weight loss to report. Well I do but it was just weight I had put on. Now I am concentrating on not being too hard on myself, but being more strict all at the same time. If that makes any sense at all! This morning I forced myself to run 3 miles. I have ran 2.5 before but never have made it to the 3 miles mark. I really wanted to give in at about 2 but just kept talking to myself to work it through. I was really proud to have been able to keep a 10 minute mile pace for the whole 3. Eating has been a struggle. I do well all day and then about 2 pm I crash and lose all will power. Today I have managed to stay away from the temptations. I guess if I can do it for Kate, I can do it for me!